Things really got out of hand and I know I didn’t help things much. If I could make everything perfect like they once were I could but since I cant I will do what I can.

What I added may seem a little harsh but its just how you come across to me now. Also would like to add that this doesn’t count as me contacting you just so you know as you read this at your free will so it doesn’t mean you can ruin what possible life I can have with it.

It would be great to think we could ever be friends again, heck I would travel the earth for a hug but as I know neither is ever likely to happen in this life time, all I can really say now I suppose is I hope your happy and be yourself don’t let people use you. Also sorry for anything in that latest if it upset you but it needed to be said.

Hate myself for loving you.

Alistair.